Tuesday, May 10, 2011
I Miss You
Letter Writing Day: Write a letter to diabetes if you'd like, but we can also take it one step further. How about writing a letter to a fictional (or not so fictional) endocrinologist telling the doctor what you love (or not) about them. Whomever you choose as a recipient, today is the day to tell them what you're feeling.
Dear Ped Endo,
I wish that I appreciated you when I had you. But that's not true either, I did. I don't really remember you from when I was first diagnosed, but you were always my doctor. I do remember when I was 8 years old and our insurance didn't cover you anymore. I had to go to an adult endocrinologist and the ONLY good thing was the way they tested my A1C. All I knew is that this man was not like you and that I just wanted you. Getting you back was amazing.
You surprised me quite often. There were times I thought I was doing good and you were displeased with my effort, and when I was scared to see you after my hospital stay you didn't mention it at all. I was excited that I wasn't going to have to change doctors until after college, but with the rise of endocrine disorders, that changed. And in those years, I've heard about you a few times from one of your patients and I've written to you a few times, but I still wish I could say that you are my doctor. You will always be my doctor.
None of this sounds right to me. None of it says how much you mean to me. No words that I can come up with let you know how awesome you are. You were the best. You should give classes on bedside manner and listening to patients and how to connect. More than anything, I miss you.
Thank you Karen for setting DBlog Week up! If you want to see everyone else's posts about their letters, check them out here!